Was it fear or excuses?
“There is no fear, There is no failure, There is no
excuses! “
Regardless NO MORE!!!
Proclaim and take action!
Here is my story, (feeling vulnerable)
When I was
13 I had back surgery for spina bifida and scoliosis. This was devastating for
a Jr. Higher that just wanted to fit in. Fit in was something that I never seem to
accomplish. Always shy and a follower
wanting to be part of the “IN” crowd. Although I knew I would never find that
with staying in my room reading a book every waking moment, that was my comfort
zone. I could put my self into the book and become the characters I was reading
about. After having my surgery I was told that I would have to wear a full body
brace. Oh it was ugly!! Full plastic body with metal up the front and around my
neck, bolts in the back, sides would bleed not stop! Had to wear this 23 ½ hours
a day for all of Jr high and High school! Didn’t that make me the cool kid!!
So here I am
now 42 years old. I have now had 29 years of fear and excuses. “I didn’t take
gym any after my surgery”, “I wasn’t allowed to do physical activity”, “I cant
do that it might mess up my back..” “If I do that could I damage my back more?”
and on and on and on….. Some very valid fears that I have let paralyze my life
but a WHOLE lot of excuses that have been just as paralyzing!
Now I am
tired of whom I have become! I am tired of the FAT, OVERWEIGHT, UNHEALTHY,
UNMOTIVATED, UNFIT, UNCHALLENGED Mother, Wife, and Grandmother. Who’s fault is
it? MINE, MINE, MINE!!!
A year ago
July 1, 2013 I was the heaviest I have ever been in my life, 238 lbs! I was embarrassed
of how I looked to my husband and my family, but most of all I was embarrassed and
ashamed of myself. I made myself a goal of losing 100 lbs. I so wanted to lose this by July 1, 2014 but unfortunately
although I made great progress and lost 67lbs I GAVE UP!!! Yes I said it! I
GAVE UP!!! I got comfortable again with the life style, I moved, I didn’t have
time to exercise, I drove over a hour to work and never had a free moment.
EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES!
So here I
am! I am down 67 lbs I am picking myself back up. I am not a failure. I have set myself a new goal. I will lose the
remainder 33 lbs by my 43 birthday July 28, 2015. I did cross one thing off my bucket list this
past year. I did an amazing 5K color run with my friends. Although I did not
run it I did complete it in a decent walking time. So my Goal this year is to TRAIN, I want to
train for an Ironman half triathlon, this consists of 1.2 mile swim, a 56 mile
bicycle ride and 13.1 mile run. I say Train because honestly speaking this is
huge and I would have to seek medical advice on actually doing this, but I know
that I can at least train and attempt to better myself. This may actually be a
couple years of training I don’t know.
But the key is that IF I PROCLAIM IT I
WILL DO IT!!
So I am
asking, Are you ready to join me on this next journey?
